I remember the first time I was told I couldn't sit at the lunch table with the "cool girls". And the first time I heard that one of the girls in choir "hated" me. I remember being called the "weird Jesus girl", the "homeschooled freak", the loser. I remember the first time I saw my picture in a group chat...
"she's so stupid."
"look at her, she's ugly"
"who does she think she is"
I remember the first time someone who claimed they loved me, told me what a naïve, stupid girl I was, and continued to tell me everything wrong with me.
"she only got that solo so she won't make a big deal about it".
"She shouldn't be Miss Kansas"
"Nobody likes her. I heard they won't book her for events"
"She shouldn't have won the fitness prelim, look at her"
"She looks fat in that dress"
"Ugh. Looks awful in this picture"
The list goes on...So what's the point?
I want you to know that everyone struggles. We have all felt unloved, unwanted, ugly, stupid, weird. At some point in our lives we won't get to sit at the "Cool table". We might not get the job we want. People won't always like us... but the good news is that doesn't change our worth.
Your worth, comes from something much bigger than the opinions of others. Your worth comes in who you are, not what you do. Your worth was established before you were knit together in your mothers womb. Your worth, is "worth it". Worth dying for, worth forgiveness, worth the trials, worth the pain...you have worth. Maybe you don't feel like it, and trust me I have been there. Because some of the quotes written in this blog are recent.... so I can't tell you it goes away. Not when you graduate high school, or college, or get the role of Miss Kansas.
There will be pain, there will be hard times....but through it all, you will be worth it. That is all that really matters. So keep your head up, because you can overcomes this too.
you are unstoppable.
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