I want to tell a story, but first I want you to understand where I am coming from. This is not a post to brag, this is a post to show just how awesome God is.
Last year, at Miss Kansas 2016, I felt a pull in my heart. I knew God was calling me to a special mission...but I didn't do it. I remember so vividly hearing God ask me to pray for my friend Annika that night. I was staring at her across the way as we all gathered in the tunnel to prepare for the final competition. I felt awkward, I didn't know how I was supposed to just walk up and start praying...so I didn't do it. I regret that a lot.
After that week, the biggest regret I had was not following God's call. I knew it was what I was supposed to do, but I didn't do it. Annika is one of my very best friends, so it wouldn't have been that hard. But I chose to focus on the competition instead. This year, I was not willing to let God's moments pass by.
The night before Miss Kansas week started this year I started crying. My mother was so concerned and all I could get out of my mouth was "I just want them to see Jesus". Weeks before, God made it so clear that eternity with Him is much more important than a sparkly crown. My heart was broken going in to this week. I was still thinking about my missed opportunity from last year. My mother encouraged me and I eventually fell asleep, knowing that I had a different focus this year.
This Miss Kansas week, I was so excited for the smallest moments God allowed me to be a part of. He told me who to hug, who to pray for silently, and when I needed to think less of the competition and myself. But finals night....that was the big moment.
All night I watched my best friend continue to advance in the competition with me. We were side by side the whole time. But when I saw that we were the final two...I couldn't contain myself. (seriously, watch the crowning video. I'm a mess).
As I looked at Annika, God whispered "this is your moment"... and I knew it had nothing to do with winning Miss Kansas. This was the moment I waited all year for....my second chance. My opportunity to pray for Annika. And so I prayed, we prayed. Because in that moment it so didn't matter what happened next...I was given the opportunity to be a part of God's plan.
Yes, my name was called as Miss Kansas...my goodness I am so thankful. But it is so important to remember all the other things that are in this life. Prayer is such a precious, intimate moment. It's a moment I gave up last year... I can't thank God enough for my second chance.